to the dungeon of my great despair.

2 MORE PAPERS TO GO  

numbed though I cldn't integrate. Its okay, life's great. But could do better with more sleep. 9 hours in 2 days. Body's 3/4 the way to breaking point! ONE MORE DAY TO HIBERNATION! Then its war time with LA. 

good night people! My lovely body clock has turned me into a PANDA. =( unglam

Edit\
I wish my brain is like a Hard disk. 
it would read disk full now.
and i would right click MAS 113
Delete. 
Right Click MAS 214 copy, paste.

I SET 5 FREAKING ALARMS and THEY DIDN'T RING. 
6.00am
6.10am
6.15am
6.20am
6.30am

AND I WOKE UP AT 9.17.

NO MORE CALMNESS.

わかりません
我不知道
JE NE SAIS PAS
I DON'T KNOW 

do you sense it? PANIC

Poem 041409

The other world 

Did you see the lizard
silently watching the world
from it's upside down poise?
Did you see the cat
stretching lazily 
watching the world go by?
Did you see the old man
with his dark grey cap 
reflecting upon his life gone by?
Did you see the clouds in the sky,
in their hues of silverish blue
floating with the silent breeze?
Whilst you were hurrying to get on with your life,
did you see the other world
you left behind?

( a pig, me )

Okay I'm finally back to normal. Normal as in I went to sleep at 4 and fell asleep soon after! And i managed to wake up at 10 for breakfast, came back and fell asleep once more! Feeling great now! Being able to sleep and taste. 

Paper later. 

Ciao. 

私わ今朝卵とパンをたべました。

in my body is spoilt. I feel so awake at 5pm and feel dead in the morning. I sleep at godly hours never before 5.30am. like seriously. And not that I want it okay. roar. 

And I woke up and found that my tastebuds were 3/4 dead don't ask me why. I thought I couldnt taste my milk because of my tooth paste, apparantly not. I ate my lunch and could barely taste it. Was so dizzy, ditzy. Oh wells and at 5pm suddenly my body seemed to have mended itself totally. I am super super awake now, and I can taste my sweet. 

RAWR.  

luckily my paper is at 5pm tomorrow the time where my body awakes. =x

Oh my, the same situation repeated itself last night and I slept at godly hours and woke up at almost the same time. The same monotonous cycle repeated itself but this time had dinner at pioneer, got a lift back to hall put my stuff down and collapsed and was dead to the world till now.

Why did I bother waking up? I have not brushed my teeth nor bathed.

And I MUST really changed my image. A friend messaged me and was like " You collapsed already?" Like oh my how would he know. And remember the post about my hall friends knowing exactly when I was sleeping. LOL whatever. I shall continue being a pig, me.

I feel my eye lids drooping already, but the laundry's not done and I've still got Jap to do. I smell the start of my exams. And I also smell the end. I was complaining to Zhong after dinner and he scolded me cause I only have 1 wk 1 day more to go. Using Sy's quote "Go you". Yea "Go me". 

And I'm really glad for the friends who meet me at Old can A practically daily since last week, and zhong for da paoing lunch to save me from Macs yest and today, for driving me to and from hall whenever he had the car (saved me from scaling the mountains), and for teaching a retarded me whatever I didn't know. 

Rawr. Brain-deaded. 

Quote of the day (actually from a song I heard on radio) : I-t-a-l-y I trust and love you. 

cool. Singapore is too unromantic a place for such things to be come up with. oh wells. Go you, go me, go everyone! 
 

insomnia for close to 3 hours.
woke up at 11.30
going to school to study.
yet again.
calculus again.
LA again.
rawr 

 W(e)

I am V
You are U
Together I plus you
we make W
No matter how much weight I gain
lets call it k (kg)
or how much you gain
kV and kU
I am still V and You are still U
added together we still make W.
Without you, I'm all alone 
zero plus me, I am just U
Without me, 
zero plus you, you are just V.
If you didn't exist, I'd be all alone being a empty shell
like zero(V) = 0
If I didn't exist, you'd too just be nothing
like zero(U) = 0
There are times I am negative, 
but U and a negative me we still make W.
so don't leave me, 
even if one day my polarity changes. 
For U and V must be closed forever, 
for W to exist
whether we add, or we multiply and fuse as 1.

OMG OMG OMG. MELISSA WHATS HAPPEN TO YOU. LIKE FREAK? ARE YOU MAD. off to do somemore LA

 Was talking to a friend online bout writing and blogging. Dug up some of my old poems and really want to keep them well. 

Period: Sec 4-J1
1.
falling leaves from the old oak tree,
bear the memories carved deep in your hearts.
rooted to the ground
despite the stormy seasons.

Raking up the leaves,
like the never ending memories,
dreams of yesterday 
coming true tomorrow.

A new day ahead,
brings us a thousand miles ahead,
walking in the sand,
leaving our footprints behind.

I always thought i was alone,
till i looked behind
realising that instead of one pair of footprints 
there were about 5. 

In the times where solitude came,
the candles lighted up my heart,
for me to see where i was going.
the flame that always melted the coldness in my heart.

2.
I ask you why,
you kept very quiet,
i asked you how,
silence again.
i ask you if i could leave,
you said its easier to survive.
I asked the lord for guidance,
and echo doesnt bounce back.
Now i understand that Faith does not exist in this world,
the lamp can never be fully lited up,
the wind would blow it out,
the glass shatters
the world tumbles
gravity pulls everything down.
My soul is playful,
running away from me as always.
i can't find it,
and neither can i be bothered too,
if it was never mine it would never return.
My only wish is to escape.

3. (this is damn morbid)
as the blastings shred through my mind,
darkness was what i felt
bloodshed ahead of me
Bright like the lightning
boomed like the thunder
And i stood alone all by myself
the rest were flat on the ground....
dead.

4.
Its just the irony of life,
to wish you were blind to the pain and sorrow,
to wish that life was just so perfect.
When I just want to cry,
but you just had to leave me.
When i just wanted to fly Up high,
it just seems so impossible.
When the sky seems so dark,
where theres nothing called a rainbow.
When I just needed you,
Where were you?
Left alone in a place so unknown.
Where are the angels you promised me?